aku,

*bukan sekadar gmbr  hiasan

aku tak punya hidup sempurna

siapa pun atau apa pun kat dunia ne mesti tak ada yg sempurna

kita selalu harapkan sesuatu tpi selalu jugala apa yg kita harapkan thu tak menjadi

it's normal

hidup memg macm ne,kadang2 kita diatas,kadang2 kita di bawah

aku baru 20 tahun,tpi macm dah byk aku lalui 

&&  aku rasa itu masih tak cukup lagi...

dugaan demi dugaan dtg...

lebih2 lagi bila aku kat sini, jauh dari keluarga aku

bila kat sini,aku cuma ada adik aku dan kawan2 aku...sesetgh org mungkin akan kata ini adala kebebasan atau mungkin bg menyedapkan hati org ckp ini adalah berdikariaku bersyukur sebb dalam usia 18 tahun lagi aku suda belajar untuk hidup sendiri

aku ada kawan2,so tak da la sunyi sgt..aku ingat lagi dulu masa kitorg muda2(18 ke 19 thun thu kira mudala)..semua bnda nak cuba...lepak la yg paling best.pusing keliling kl tanpa arah tuju,buang masa itu ini..buat gila sekejap...sgt best!!!org lain mungkin kata benda ne sia2 tpi apa guna hidup kalau tak menikmati semua benda thu..bukan nya kita buat benda jahat...isap dadah or wahtsoever.dan aku suka macm thu...hidup macm betul2 org muda.

aku belajar cinta thu apa.dan as far as apa yg aku experience cinta thu memg best.tpi at the same time buat aku sengsara.masa aku ada bf dulu,hmpir tiap2 minggu aku nangis.aku buat apa saja untuk org yg aku syg..sggup jaln kaki,buat itu ini.beli itu ini.jadi itu ini untuk jadi macm apa yg dia suka tpi akhirnya dia dgn cibai nya layan aku macm ne...sory ayat aku keras skit..kamu bole ckp kawan je la...tpi kamu tak faam macm mana sakitnya aku...dlm byk2 bf aku pun (erm 3 thu tadala byk kan?) sorg je yg aku masih berkawan baik...masih berhubung dan siap bole dtg ruma dia lagi masa hari raya...dia memg baik...cinta pertama akuyg paling aku tak boleh lupa.yg second,sorry to say,tak bole tgk muka dia langsung.hahaha..rasa macam nak TUMBUK.okay,aku da mals jd hipokrit..hahahaa.memg aku benci dia..hahah.dia yg buat aku benci lelaki sbentar.so,aku benci dia..hahahahahahaha.okay sudala.

aku akui aku kat sini byk berubah...tpi aku masi tak lupa daratan.aku sedar aku dari mana,aku sedar aku kesini untuk apa..lagi2 untuk membanggakan kedua ibubapa aku.aku belajar betul2 biarpun aku ne bukannya pandai sgt pun.tapi atleast dorg happy kalau aku berjaya kan?.

how i miss u,

I am TOTALLY 100% POSITIVELY sure that I am in the syndrome of missing:

.Sabah

my family,my home(the weird house of mine),my room, my car and everything that I own in Sabah.I miss them.

.My girls...

Anis Audina(aku rindu kaw,pendek!),'Izzatul Nadiah(almost like a soul sister to me), Siti Sarah(kaw balik awal sgt knapa???), Nurul Yazmin (biarpun aku jumpa kaw almost tiap minggu) and Siti Nursyahira Nabila (jumpa selalu pun boleh rindu okay!hahaha)

the most important is,I miss how we used to do things together.where we had the girl's day out or girls' nite out.we shared almost everything.we might have this up side down in our friendship.No drama.no point la kan?..or maybe it was just me?..hahaha...and I'm glad that I met you girls.I learn how to appreciate people who truly care about me rather than those who didn't.I also learn that having a great friends is much more important than having a guy,I mean having a damn fucking stupid guy in your life. I learned that the hard way.YOU CAN TOSS A BOYFRIEND JUST LIKE A BALL.you know what I'm saying?.thanks for always be there for me too.anyhoo,I love all of you.

.My life as a college student

Perhaps I might be lucky once again.being a college student.having lots of assignment,lectures and attend classes are fun.hahahaha...i might regret what I said.well,I know I sound pathetic or maybe silly for some of you.but seriously,staying at home doing nothing is way pathetic,you know.

.Mid Valley,Bukit Bintang,One Utama and Ikea

Idk why *sigh*.I just wish that I could go there now.though with no money,it's okay jugala.haha

.Buy new things

Obviously because I have no money now.If only I have the kaching2 in my hand,the first thing I would buy is a cardigan or blazer ,or maybe colourful top,or maybe a skinny jeans,erm...booties maybe,sneakers,or haa yaa, a sling bag(the one that I saw at FOREVER 21)..so cool.daddy please come here so that we can buy all of these.hahaha...kuang asammm ko el.

*erm color tak menarik la pulak*

.Karaoke.

Karaoke jamban pun tak kisah sebb da sangap gila.terima kasih youtube kerana merealisasikan impian saya.PEACE!.

if ada lagi I tambah okay,buat masa ne..ini je yg terlintas d kepala otak

oh ohhhhh...im in love with these wolvesss

ohhhhh,

(ignore muka minta puji tpi tgk muka tyson saya...thanx SHE sebb buat kad thu untuk aku.syg kaw!)

Daddy,cepatla antar kereta!!!

kering suda saya di sini

:( :(

&&

I want my hair to grow longer

 and fasterrrrrlaaa!!

and kinda boring now

especially when having the same look all the time 

urghh,,

It's already November baby!!!

oh suda masuk bulan NOVEMBER rupanya!..macm sedar tak sedar je kan?..

apa2 pun arap2 bulan ne memberi byk [TUAH.KEBAIKAN.SERTA KEBAHAGIAAN] kepada aku dan semua2 yg disayangi///

apa benda best yg akan berlaku bulan ne haa?..em tak pasti la...tpi yg penting aku ingat hari2 kelahiran sahabat2 yg disayangi iaitu Izut's birthday yg bertarikhkan 14 November juga Yaz's birthday pada 24 November nnti.wah kamu juga bakal masuk 20 tahun.Tahniah bette!!.hehe.

&&

mungkin bakal juga menyambung pembelajaran dalam BACHELOR IN EDUCATION (TESL) jika tiada sebarang kesulitan yg akan dialami.wah kalau berjaya, maknanya aku dah nak jadi bdak DEGREE  la ya?.woot woot..rasa tua sebentar..hahaha

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oh ya btw, I went to AAR last saturday and it was TOTALLY FREAKING AWESOME!!!!! and I was like 1 or 2 metres away from TYSON RITTER...OMG!!!..He is so dropdead gorgeous+sexy+hot that night,I must say!!!.I took lots of video and pictures of him though only using my phone's camera. which is not in a very high quality.but who cares??haha.the only thing that was not really fun was that me and my girls were not together this time.only me and SHE went.but it was alright.!.and paling tak best sebb kitorg terpisah.me,Neyu and kawan Neyu dpt pegi depan almost near the stage but the rest tak dapt lepas sebb org ramai+ sesak gila.ne pun sebb kitorg kecik thu dapt lepas..huhu..

anyhooo....

tysonnn!!

swing swing,the wind blows,Gives you hell,I WANNA,the last song,move along wah byk sih lagu2 yg dimainkan malm itu..best bangaaatttt! <3