APSAL?

Asal blog aku ne cam 'ladies' gila...

vintage2 gitu..

ke taste aku da berubah?

aku da wanita ka?

*gmbr takde kena mngena..saje rasa dorang comel..hahaha

eh hello elle?

kaw da 22 tahun kot...belom wanita lgi apanya?

boleh kahwin da kot..

okay tu angan2...kerja pun belom lagi...heeee

tpi kadang2 aku rase cam sebab badan aku ne kecik,nak nmpk matang,susah..

padahal muka dah jelas2 dah tua.

budak umur 20 tahun pun dah tak pandang aku taw...

apa motif sebenarnya entry aku ne?

comel kan?

16 random things about me?(second version.I have done this before in my old blog)

Directions: Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you.At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them.Don't forget to leave a comment (''You're tagged!'') and to read your blog.You can't tag the person who tagged you.Since you can't tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

1)I'm a dreamer.tiba2

2) I'm turning 20 this 18 OCTOBER 1989

3) Currently addicted to FILEM MELAYU,TELEMOVIE MELAYU and DRAMA MELAYU.

4) I'm soon-to-be a Teacher5) Universal listener.I listen to most types of music.Rnb,metal,rock,pop,blues,acoustic.It depends on the lyrics.

6)I own a DSLR CAMERA.Canon 450D.I'm new with this thing and still learning

7) I'm a short-sighted. i need my glasses or contact lens to see things clearly.8) I mke up excuses almost for everything *sigh*

9) I love maths when I was in high school.but i end up taking diploma in TESL.mbahahaha

10)I hate copycats but sometimes I can't even run away from being one of them.

11) I wanna grow 20 inches tall when I reach the age of 21 and still can maintain my weight.hahaha.mustahil!

12) love black and white so much.lately.

13) kuat ckp,sgt annoying tpi loveable and adorable.mbhahahaha

14) Yaz hanya tinggi beberapa inci sahaja but still,I'm the shortest.*DAYM*

15) I'm very honest when it comes to friends and love.Like,when I say I love you.I really mean it.

16) Yes,I'm single and not ready for any serious relationship at the moment.Friend comes first!

Who shud I tag?
YOU!!!

Why I wrote this,I'm not sure.

I don't know if you read this but if you are,then take a deep look of what I'm going to say..

You think that I can forgive you just like that?
It's not that easy,boy.
btw,you didn't even ask me for an apology.not a single word.so,Why should I forgive you?
remember the last person that broke my heart before you?
you are much more crueler than him.FYI.
things that you did to me was totally UNFORGIVEN okay?
before was the same thing
you treated me like some kind of rubbish the last time I called you.
remember?
those words that you said to me.haa.you hanged up the phone just like that.
I'm not good enough for you and so on.bla bla bla
I guess she is much more better than me right?
then go ahead.
You don't mean anything to me anymore.
by thinking how you did me wrong,all those memories are slowly fade away.
so,don't expect anything from me
You said you know me?
Oh NO YOU DON'T!
I used to cry and felt sorry for myself
But it's different now because I hold my head up high
and I'm not that chained up little person that still in love with you dear.
("I WILL SURVIVE")
REVENGE?
NO!
I won't do anything
I believe that KARMA will haunt you back

So,back off!You are not welcome anymore.

p/s:saya tahu saya agak kejam dan jahanam dalam blog kali ini.huhhuhu.Elle jahat.bencila si Elle yg LEMBUT HATI ne..

ALMOST TRUE about me :)

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

huhuhu

Afgan da ada gf ke?
dia da ada gf ke?
alah~
napa suma org ada gf ne
nak minat pun tak bole
takot la nak dekat2

macm mana dengan yg thu?

dia x nak la

kwan je

aish~

wakakkakaa
sapa kata tak boleh
senget la ko ne el
songek!

p/s:Saja gurau2 :P :P

arini :)

Bagitu cepat manusia beralih arah
namun macam thula ragam manusia kan?
ikot hati dulu bru fikiran.
aku sendiri pernah mangalaminya suatu masa dulu
mungkin sesetgh kamu x faam apa yg aku cuba sampaikan
tpi kalo nak baca juga.truskanla.dialu2kan :)

sekrang aku sedar
bwat apa nak kelam kabut
kebahagiaan pasti akan muncul
cuma cepat atau lambat saja
bnda ne baru lagi
aku cuba untk selesa dgn status aku sekarang
yg baik kita teman,yg x baik kita lwan.
itu je
aku pernah tersilap langkah
memilih org untuk dijadikan teman
aku tak fikir lama.
mcm aku ckp
kita seringkali dahulukan hati dari akal fikiran
itu tidak salah
namun berfikir2 dulula before kita bwat keputusan
selidik betul2 then you'll follow your heart.
what your heart says alrite

chillin'

chillin

aku nak chill untuk beberapa ari ne dulu

maybe bulan2 juga

tamau la fikir byk lagi

kusut kepala tau x?

2 kali kandas bwat aku jadi takut

situasi agak sama plak thu.aish~

mesti bnda sama akan jadi lagi

serik da nak bg komitmen (padahal tada pun sapa2 nak approach aku.sedi aa. thu saja je gedik)

mesti sama je benda jadi..

haha

padahal nasib aku yg malang

hua3

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biarla masa2 ne aku fokus dulu ngan diri aku sendiri dulu

benda yg aku nk bwat

kawan je ngan suma org.Insya Allah,kalo pintu hati aku da terbuka aku akan belajar juga trima org dlm hidup aku dan trima aku seadanya tanpa mengharap kan perubahan.bwat masa ne trus terang x.

aisehmen~

cuma thula aku sedikit kusut memikirkan 'rumah' aku kat shah alam thu

mana yg nak kluar,mana lagi nak cari org masuk ke..tatau lagi la

aish

napala tmpt practicum x kena bgtau awal2

bleh la aku agak mana aku nak mrempat tiga bulan nnti

arap2 dapt la ngan kwan2 aku yg rapat ne ha...

hahaha

and baru2 ne kontek senior aku,oh rupanya pas practikal bole je teros smbung degree even tak konvo lagi.tatau plak an!ikot hati mmg nak smbung je cepat siket abes stadi but thu la my dad suru trus kerja then my mum pun ckp macm thu.kalo nak smbung stadi pun better smbung kat UMS je byk duit ho blajar kat swasta ne.masi difikir2.practicum pun tak bwat lagi kan?

papa pun guys!

wish me luck okay!

n doa2 kan untuk el supaya cepat sembuh!!!

hahah,.tak malu betol.

p/s:Weee~ esop aku nak MASAK untuk famili aku.al maklumla.kat Shah Alam nak masak camna?

My heart.I'm sorry....

Dedicated to my heart.

Heart, I know I've been hard on you
I'm sorry for the things I've put you through
Before you start to break on me or ask for sympathy
I need to make you see

O, heart, I'm not sure it's been long enough
To say that what I feel is really love
There's just one way to learn, sometimes we'll get hurt
And right now it's our turn

Give it time, help me through
Heart, we can do this together
You're my strength, you're my soul
I need you now more than ever

Heart, all the hurt will soon be gone
If you'll, if you'll just keep on being strong
You will always be my friend, so keep on hangin' in
And we'll find love again ok?

hahaha.long bloggggg again!

Elops,my beloved readers.
erkh.wait a minute!
adaka?
hahahahaha
jk2.


Lately,I've been busying myself doing things that i love
singing.
what else do you expect me to do?

"sitting here and imagine how miserable my life is
how unbearable my pain is
how hopeless I am
how pathetic I am because no one actually here to comfort me
and ready listen everything from me
NO!
but right at this moment,I am all by myself
everything on my own.
i guess it because there no one I could think to take care of
haha boo yaah el!"


thanks to you tube,ekceli
even though somehow I sing like a tong drum yg da rosak.
but this is one of the way to heal myself from all the pressure that I made
I know I have to cope with it
so this is what I do

&&&&
I want to make announcement for anyone out there
who are interested to offer me as your vocalist
please let me know!
call me:013-tekan2 saja no. yg ada kat keypad hp korg

gila perasan minah ne!
hahahaa

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I've thinking to change my wardrobe,my clothes and all.
Hey,I'm turning 20 this year
It should be like a beginning for everything
that's only my opinion
plus,I'm soon-to-be-a-teacher rite?
all those stupid t-shirt,I should thrown them away
And I'm planning of wearing "tudung" by the end of this year.
not drastically,but slowly
I'm serious this time guys!
no kidding
n support me owkaay.
i need it or else I will be like macam dulu2
hahhahaha

NEW LIFE kan??
I should stick with this one too.
I should put myself together

&&&

I love you blog!
you are OFFICIALLY my BEST FRIEND!!!!

gila-gilaaaan?!

just a few minutes ago I listen to these songs and I feel like I want make another entry for today.

have you ever heard the band called "Peterpan" suatu masa dulu?.katala aku poyo ke apa.tapi mesti perna kan?
Honestly,I fall in love with their songs..... again (dulu muda2 agak syok gila jugakla ngan ARIEL thu kan.sapa yg tau,bwat2 tak tahu)
most of them has something related to me.I mean,the meaning of the songs,the lyrics and all some how has to do with what I'm going through right now.*sigh*.
old memories datg balek.masa form 4 smpi la skrg.

mungkin nanti,semua tentang kita and ku katakan dengan indah.
lagu yg indah dan mempunyai maksud yang sangat mendalam.
apatah lagi lirik2nya semua trus straight to the point
apa yg ingin disampaikan senang dipahami,tak payahla susa aku nak menterjemahnya dengan bahasa aku sendiri.ye x?
apa yg aku mengarut ne???
hahaha
suka ati la kaw el.
whatever that makes u happy la el
asyik lagu indon je
lagu english mana?
ada2 dun worry
but i want to keep it for myself dulu
kang korg terkejut lagu apa aku dgr.
hahahaha

"dan mungkin bila nanti,kita akan bertemu lagi
satu pinta ku jangan kau tanya kan kembali rasa yg ku tinggal mati"

"ada cerita tentang masa yg indah
saat kita berduka,saat kita tertawa"

"kau hancurkan hati ku tuk melihatmu,
kau terangi jiwaku,kau redupkan lagi"

This one should go chapter by chapter

Hatred,sacrifice or just a self pity?

Why do I suddenly have this feeling of hatred in me?

I hate myself for having a mistake in my "PERFECT" life.
I hate myself for letting people hurt me.
I hate myself for those tears I cried.
I hate myself for showing me dreams that I wish I would never had anymore.
I hate myself for having hopes & dreams.
But most of all I hate it when every time I look back,all those memories and heart broken feelings will haunt me back.
I hate it!

&&&

I start to put a blame on people too
People who I feel that they took "something" from me
Ya.it hurts so much when you know that someone feels that she/he doesn't need you anymore just because he/she has meet someone else that gives him/her life that is full of happiness.
haaa!


but there's nothing I can do about it rite?
just shut my eyes,mouth,ears and nose
and try to stay away
keep my distance cause it is the best thing I can do at the moment
let them live their life the way they want
why should I bother?
I should be happy too
no,I deserve to be happy too
it's enough that I have sacrifice everything that I used to have
was mine
well,at least i have to stand up for myself
my feeling and everthing that I own
don't lie to yourself anymore El.
plsss.
jangan sakitkan hati sendiri lagi






twist!!!

Stupidla you El
Why put a blame of yourself?
Why put the blame of other people too?
What were you thinking?
Get over it!
Why should you cry for people who ain't need you,appreciate you and love you?
Those people are not worth for you to giving up your life.
why don't you just appreciate those yg already you have and always be there for you
Family and friends
they won't go anywhere unless you're the one who don't even bother or know how to appreciate them
they are the reason for your smile today,remember??
It's time for me to set myself free from all those animosities.
I know i have try so hard to change this pain and make it invisible by doing something that helps me stronger
and i should keep on with it!!!
no matter what

it feels so much better and relief now.I guess.."spit" everything out.
maybe I just keep thinking too much about all of these things that
happen to me
WORLD PEACE!
XD

P/s:Arap x lama lagi bole la sy tido dgn tenang tanpa terjaga dan menangis tiba2.hahaha.bodo je mimpi thu.